I Need A Defibrillator

To resuscitate myself from this suffocating environement...
For the very first time in 6 years after my study days in Melbourne and also since my entry to Salford Uni, I've deliberately cut class yesterday. Not that it is important to attend it's the first class of the semester, probably just introductions. But The point was.. I lost my will and interest to attend classes now, despite my determination for 100% attendance. And there it goes, flying away gone forever.. It used to be fun coming here.. I used to wake up like 3 hours early before class hours, cleaning myself up, having breakfast, and travel to class leisurely. Now? I'm taking short and slow steps walk to uni, heavy hearted and reluctant to enter the classroom, forcing myself to go anyway only for the technical reasons.
Making my day worse, it's been decided 2 classes this semester will be having group presentations again.. Considering the last semester's group works I had was nightmare, and on top of that being cold shouldered in class. First group seems fine.. So far.. I'm not clear on the whole picture who's in my group. The other 1 however I'm totally clueless since I cut that class yesterday. And I'm not sure I want to find out.
Sigh... It's tiring I know. I've got nothing but negative stuff to say the past week. So what's "positive" in my recent days then? Can't think of anything so far besides my games? Only thing keeping up my mood. I got a perfect score in the tank game I played yesterday with no deaths in my team~ YAY!~ there.. something positive at last right? Feels comforting again when I distract myself making SNSD portraits for my tank crew in my game. Sounds weird and all especially that I know even among the guys would wonder what's so interesting about an online multiplayer tank game? I was skeptical too but just gave it a try (it's free anyway) and it got addictive surprisingly. To the point I payed £42 for premium items in it. That's like RM210 in conversion. Stephanie was like "walauweh expensive sia" haha I know..
Aihz... Pathetic.. The only good thing in my recent days are PC game, PC games & PC games..
Think I know I should do! I'm gonna make something nice to eat right this minute and crack open a bottle. Been keeping it for any special occasion but now its safe to assume I won't be expecting any occasion to celebrate for the rest of the year. Bottoms up!!