This Phantom Needs To Click Fast Forward..

The first quarter of this year was surreal to me.. Alienated, anticipative, fun, enthusiastic, motivated, and then suddenly.. devastated. It felt like time from February to May flew so fast, the first semester ended before I knew it. But why.. June onwards felt like an eternity? It's only been a month of the 2nd semester and it feels like an agonizing wait through a whole year.. Everyday in class I just keep thinking "this lecturer needs to shuddap! End the class already! I'd rather go home and play tanks". The modules they're teaching this semester I really have to say are not worth my parents money. Every subject taught this semester are things I already know or purely common sense that I am already practicing. It's a nowonder I've been skipping so many classes I've lost count already. Further more I'm like a phantom in class anyway, nobody notices my presence there even among my classmates. And still here I am blogging in the middle of a lecture unbothered & unnoticed, makes me wonder why I bother to attend classes anyway. Or is it just merely because everyone including the lecturer sensed my "murderous" aura despite my attempt to put on a smile whenever necessary? Guess my "fake happy mood" didn't work..
The last weekend however was a satisfying and.. Well.. I can't think of a better word than happy and fun. Jeslyn kept her promise despite her crazy schedule and tasks (she's really a damn busy girl lol) and I truly appreciate that. I even felt a little guilty that I might be adding to her busy schedule though she said the was really happy to have a talk with me again. I sure do hope so. Additionally I must say I'm glad we did meet up. On the first and second day at her place I already met quite a number of her friends and another old friend I knew long ago. Her classmate/flatmate/good friend especially was... hot? Bulgarian Vietnamese girl with a "lala" dressing style although so far seems to have a decent personality. The surprising part was she was only 20 when I thought she was 23 like Jeslyn. She caught my attention more when she showed how much interest and knowledge she has about k-pop! I thought "hey, I think I've met a good friend~" LOL.
Short sidetrack : at this very minute writing this blog, I've just checked my email and my exam results have been released. Can't say I didn't expect it but well I've passed every subject though I'm unsatisfied with the scoring with the module which involved my presentation with the Chinese group. I swear they've been bringing me down from the start. No matter, on their next presentation where they've deliberately excluded me from the group, I shall have my vendetta identifying their weakness in their business plan and take advantage of their Q&A to weaken their grades. I'll assure them they'll have my FULL attention. Anyway moving on..
Despite my "undeveloped interest" in this new friend I've met, I'm already determined to avoid any romantic intentions with anyone and focus on my career building. However I'm looking forward to any event that may ensue this weekend if Jes does have time to hang out. I need the escapade from this depressing environment in classes..