So its Tuesday.. Wait, I mean Wednesday now.. I'm still in my office at 2.30am now. Yea work as usual and its not the first time my boss made a ridiculously short dateline. When I say something will take at least 9 days to complete (note i said "at least"), he gives me 5 days to finish it and makes me promise unwillingly. Working here isn't fun. A lot of people asked me in the past whether this was the job I wanted. I couldn't answer cuz honestly I don't know myself. To give a more elaborate answer, I told them this instead. I have told a couple of friends in the past that if they want to choose a career or a line of study in uni, I advised them not to mix interest and career as one unless they are truly passionate about it regardless of stress and rejection. Because when you turn a hobby into work, it starts to get boring and you'll eventually lose interest in it. I can only blame myself for choosing to study 3D animation and work in that line than to consider my family heritage and take engineering. The one joyful moment of learning 3D is only when you see your work come to fruition and people actually admire it. But during the process of creating it, its horrid, tedious and stressful. Endless amendments from client's change of mind, technical difficulties which you newly encountered, and the headache of figuring out ideas of solving each problem, worst of all, when you're racing against time towards datelines. You don't have datelines in your hobbies do you? But all these are just a small matter compared to the more important question at hand. Will this bring me a bright future? Looking around me, I don't even see a glimpse of it. It doesn't take me a year to notice that staying here learning and working so frigging hard for peanuts, isn't gonna get my anywhere.. 80% of the time I work overtime past my office hour which is 7.30pm, 50% of the time i work past 9pm, 30% of the time I work past 12 midnight, and 5% of the time its till 4am. Regardless of how much overtime I work, I'm not getting a bonus claim. And I'm not even earning more than 1.5k ringgit monthly. You have a clearer picture now, that continuing like this for the next 3 years, I won't even be able to buy a car. Some of you are thinking I have my dad to give me a car and stuff. No, I don't want my dad's car, I want my own and I want to earn enough to actually be able to give them allowance as well even though I know they don't need it. I want to fulfill my purpose as a son even though I don't get along very well with my family. It's just simply the burden in my heart that makes me want to do that. Just a few hours ago I met someone unexpected. I met Swee Sum if some of you know who he is. He was with his new gf (I think). She was gorgeous btw. And judging from his clothing, the flowers his gf was carrying which I assume he gave her, hes successful now and when I got his card, "I'm working in Public Bank", yea I'm certain he is now. He and I are of same age, but hes more achieved and certainly earns more than I do, multiple folds perhaps. That was when I again know I need to get out of this crap life. I'm living in a Malay/Indian family-style condo, room with no air-con or ceiling fan, and I'm paying 30% of my salary for the rent. I start to realize how low my lifestyle is now. For awhile I've longed of a chance to start a career with a wealthy lifestyle on my own effort. But till now I haven't found a solution. I haven't found the escape route to the golden road. And though there are some I don't have the confidence to take the chance mainly because of my lack of experience and knowledge in the field I'm in. I believe I've made my point to you whoever is reading this so far. If you have any solutions or suggestions that could help, I'd be glad to hear and consider.
Year 2012~ What will you do?
Last Saturday I watched the popular movie titled "2012". I was surprised it was that popular as the trailer I saw few months back wasn't very catchy enough to me. It broke the Hollywood box office profit 4 times the amount earned by the next highest ranked movie "Christmas Carol" in the first week of its premier. To those who don't know what is it about, I shall tell you why it is a must see. It doesn't matter if you don't watch English movies, doesn't matter if you aren't a CG animation fan, and doesn't matter if you aren't fond of apocalyptic disaster movies. You need to watch it because it will make you think really thoroughly after. It concerns your life, the life of your family, the life of your friends, the life of everyone around you. It is just a movie yes, but it still does concern you and me. And it is important for you to care. Because if you wish to continue living your life tomorrow carefree and ignorant of whats important, you'll end up regretting it.
This movie portrays a normal common family struggling and fighting for their lives to survive an apocalyptic event various disasters. Mother nature has decided that we humans have hurt her home enough and has acted to put an end to our race. You, me, your wife, husband, mother, father, sister, brother, and friends, will all fall victim to mother nature's wrath and we won't even have a chance to beg for mercy. In the movie you will see the earth crumbling, clear and visible of millions of ppl falling to their deaths from their office buildings and homes down to hell, volcanic lava flowing and scorching victims burnt alive, and ultimately a worldwide flood to wipe all of remaining humanity to extinction. Nobody was spared, not even the US President who died by his own aircraft carrier by the flood wave. What more about this movie is that the script was well thought out. It all makes sense. Don't you foolishly think your government will tell you the world is going to end soon even if they know it. Knowing not even the world governments combined could fight against mother nature, they will decide only to save themselves. There are many reasons they won't tell the public.
1. Fear of causing anarchy. If you were told everybody including you have only 1 or 2 years left to live, what would you do? Schools will stop, office workers stop working knowing there is no more future to build, robbery and rape will occur amass. Chaos will arise and not even the army or police will bother to stop it knowing they will die along with them soon.
2. The presidents and prime ministers know they can have a way to save themselves. But regardless how much finance they will spend on to build an ark, they can't fill every man, women and child on earth in it. If the public knew of the ark, many will do anything it takes to get in even if they have to kill those who have passes to get in. Of course even politicians will be no exception. Its a fight for your life after all, anyone would pay all their property and kill to stay alive.
3. Telling too early will create a political effect and demolish alliances, and destroying the economy. Although these things don't matter after the apocalypse, the point is to maintain continuity of the production of the arks. They need the money to buy materials for it and preserve their investors and supplier's lives who of course have special passes for their survival. War could also erupt early for countries which did not have privileged to be proposed for being included into the list for survival, especially those countries which aren't in good terms with the US. Organizations may bribe officials in the ark project for infiltration, compromising the ark's security. These are only a few possibilities in the list of chaos that could be caused by revealing the secret.
Now, with all that said. You may ask, "ok so you've made your point, what am I suppose to do about it? There's no running away from our peril anyway". That is true, but there is something you can do about it. For one, (looking at 1 particular friend) money isn't everything. Its okay to work hard for a high lifestyle, but not at a price of your pride, health or happiness. A 100 dollar note is only worth a toilet paper to wipe ur butt when the world comes to an end. It doesn't matter whether its the apocalypse or you suffering from cancer. We need to live life everyday like its our last. Confess your feelings to your crush today, mend old wounds with mortal enemies, don't ignore those who love you for something menial like your business meeting or dota match. This is at least what I've meditated from this movie. If you have a different thought of approach, share your thoughts as you please.
On the last note about 2012, my rating for it :- 4.5/5 stars
The script was well thought out, everything makes sense. The CG was great stunning, the first half were mostly "gan cheong madness", and most of the story were taken based on true real life facts. Like the Mayan doomsday calender actually exist in real life. Try googling it. Even the reason China was chosen as the location to build the ark also made sense, due to the fact its the largest continent on earth far from the ocean from all sides, giving enough warning and preparation time to standby for the flood impact. Overall there's a strong sense of realism in the movie especially the story, which no doubt should impact every audience's thought of life.
I have a feeling I still have more to blog about but I forgot bout it for now and its long enough anyway. 4am now.. Madness..
6 years ago
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